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Post by Hyunzales on Jul 20, 2019 2:29:15 GMT 1
I am very sorry about this random episode of life with Gery. I just want to share this story and to let out a few emotions, thoughts and everything and if someone is willing to read (this post might end up pretty long) an honest opinion wouldn't hurt.
Okay, so basically the story starts in 2013 when I got accepted to my uni. I started it in that year's September. My main is teacher training which is a new major in my country, all in all it doesn't give you a Bachelor's Degree, it goes straight to Master's. Jump in time, because of bad past decisions and heavy lazyness, I failed many, many key subjects thus making me delaying my finals and leaving the uni on time. I was supposed to finish this summer if things weren't bad eventually. I didn't really tell this to my sister, who is somewhat the head of my family because my mom got a stroke back in 2011 and she is disabled since then. My mum knew I wouldn't finish in time but my sister didn't. She then decided to organise a party for me and also bought a gift for my graduation. Which obviously didn't happen. I know my greatest mistake was that I didn't tell her on the spot that I won't finish this year. I made her believe that I would finish. Simply because she already bought the present in March. I just didn't have the guts to tell her that she shouldn't do this because of the aforementioned reason. She was so enthusiastic and happy, I just didn't want to be a Debbie Downer or make her let down. This isn't a winning situation for me already.. So the day came to the graduation, It was on the 27th of June, but I didn't know about it personally and she checked on my uni's website that it is on the 28th. Needless to say we all went there in fancy clothes and I sadly told her that it was on the other day. (mind you I still didn't had the power to tell the full truth). Then she gave me the gift and some money to have a party with friends. I didn't know what to say I organised a quick dinner with my friends (still brought back like the 70% of the money). Days went by and it just happened on this Monday (so the 15th of July) , that I finally got the guts to tell her. She rightfully freaked out about all of this. We got into a minor fight because of her reaction and the way she spoke and misunderstood what I said to which I apologized. Later that night, she came home drunk as hell. She wanted to kill me because of this whole stuff. She was carrying a knife, later on a bike pump, so that she could hit me with either of them, luckily or unluckily (still under the debate with myself about this) I didn't get harmed. During that night she was yelling with my mum too and she was throwing things around like her bedsite cabinet. I had enough of that, as I can personally handle the shit she throws at me.. But when she goes against my mum.. I get raged like a bull. I attacked her solely because of this. Which latwr on went to more fights but I called a friend of mine and decided to move to hers as she is living alone and she already gave me this offer as my sister does attack me for purely every small little thing. Only reason I came back was because my mum was crying non stop as she loves me more than anything else, I am in a way her tranquilizer. As she is much calmer when I am around in a nutshell. (side note she hates my sister because of her behaviour too and also sometimes she goes to sleep with a bad feeling in her stomach and I am no medic student or etc, but in 2017's November/December she got diagnosed with some very weak epilepsy, I personally connect my sister's drunk rage circus acts at almost every single night to her new illness as maybe a sort of panic attack and I don't even want to get deep into my mental health which isn't in a good shape either)
Okay so after that I spent the whole Tuesday speaking about this matter with her trying to reason with her that what were my intentions behind this.
Still to this day it isn't settled and she thinks she is right in every possible way and I am a scum and I could line up eight thousand other negative words to describe me.
If any of you have some opinion on this (supporting me or not) is welcome as I can't seem to get over the fact that yes I did make a gigant mistake but are her shenanigans justified?
Okay, so basically the story starts in 2013 when I got accepted to my uni. I started it in that year's September. My main is teacher training which is a new major in my country, all in all it doesn't give you a Bachelor's Degree, it goes straight to Master's. Jump in time, because of bad past decisions and heavy lazyness, I failed many, many key subjects thus making me delaying my finals and leaving the uni on time. I was supposed to finish this summer if things weren't bad eventually. I didn't really tell this to my sister, who is somewhat the head of my family because my mom got a stroke back in 2011 and she is disabled since then. My mum knew I wouldn't finish in time but my sister didn't. She then decided to organise a party for me and also bought a gift for my graduation. Which obviously didn't happen. I know my greatest mistake was that I didn't tell her on the spot that I won't finish this year. I made her believe that I would finish. Simply because she already bought the present in March. I just didn't have the guts to tell her that she shouldn't do this because of the aforementioned reason. She was so enthusiastic and happy, I just didn't want to be a Debbie Downer or make her let down. This isn't a winning situation for me already.. So the day came to the graduation, It was on the 27th of June, but I didn't know about it personally and she checked on my uni's website that it is on the 28th. Needless to say we all went there in fancy clothes and I sadly told her that it was on the other day. (mind you I still didn't had the power to tell the full truth). Then she gave me the gift and some money to have a party with friends. I didn't know what to say I organised a quick dinner with my friends (still brought back like the 70% of the money). Days went by and it just happened on this Monday (so the 15th of July) , that I finally got the guts to tell her. She rightfully freaked out about all of this. We got into a minor fight because of her reaction and the way she spoke and misunderstood what I said to which I apologized. Later that night, she came home drunk as hell. She wanted to kill me because of this whole stuff. She was carrying a knife, later on a bike pump, so that she could hit me with either of them, luckily or unluckily (still under the debate with myself about this) I didn't get harmed. During that night she was yelling with my mum too and she was throwing things around like her bedsite cabinet. I had enough of that, as I can personally handle the shit she throws at me.. But when she goes against my mum.. I get raged like a bull. I attacked her solely because of this. Which latwr on went to more fights but I called a friend of mine and decided to move to hers as she is living alone and she already gave me this offer as my sister does attack me for purely every small little thing. Only reason I came back was because my mum was crying non stop as she loves me more than anything else, I am in a way her tranquilizer. As she is much calmer when I am around in a nutshell. (side note she hates my sister because of her behaviour too and also sometimes she goes to sleep with a bad feeling in her stomach and I am no medic student or etc, but in 2017's November/December she got diagnosed with some very weak epilepsy, I personally connect my sister's drunk rage circus acts at almost every single night to her new illness as maybe a sort of panic attack and I don't even want to get deep into my mental health which isn't in a good shape either)
Okay so after that I spent the whole Tuesday speaking about this matter with her trying to reason with her that what were my intentions behind this.
Still to this day it isn't settled and she thinks she is right in every possible way and I am a scum and I could line up eight thousand other negative words to describe me.
If any of you have some opinion on this (supporting me or not) is welcome as I can't seem to get over the fact that yes I did make a gigant mistake but are her shenanigans justified?