Daniel
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Post by Daniel on Apr 28, 2019 23:09:19 GMT 1
SEASON 6 · EPISODE 1
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agni
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Post by agni on Apr 29, 2019 0:33:39 GMT 1
PHÚC NG BÍCH week 1 -- the entire herstory of you
gay angels by perfume genius timeslot: 2:35 im gay, im an angel and i only speak in gibberish. one of the first songs i've listened to by perfume genius. the video with the song makes me feel things i cant describe with words, and even if it's all in gibberish, i've never related more to a song.
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Post by Argüello on Apr 29, 2019 7:12:25 GMT 1
First Challenge First Week ♦ the entire herstory of you ♦
Flood On The Water By Purity Ring timeslot: 1:43 ''She lost her voice down by the river Screamin' for courage, take oceans and her'' Since I was little I had always been insecure, didn't believe in myself, just did what people wanted me to do ''Don't forget the way she pushed the water inside Wading through the spirits like a flood on the floor Don't forget, forget, don't forget, forget Don't forget, forget, don't forget'' These lyrics simbolize all the power that has always been inside of me, now that I know that I'm worthy and I can do whatever I put myself in mind, there is no stopping me, this songs it's a whole experience and everytime I listen to it I remember I'm no longer that small insecure boy, I'm ready to take the world. Don't forget, forget, don't forget''
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Post by Julian on Apr 29, 2019 10:42:44 GMT 1
Gabrielle Aplin • "My Mistake"Recap time: 3:35+
As I explained in this post, I have Schizoid Personality Disorder and while at first I wasn't sure what to send for this challenge, I eventually thought that it might be a good idea to send a song about that, since it's a challenge about our life after all. This song was chosen by me because I can really relate to the lyrics. Even though this song wasn't written about SPD, I still recognise myself in most of the lyrics. While I don't think that I'd be able to change, sometimes I just feel bad about myself and my life and wish I could be a different person in order to be less lonely and isolated and obviously I also often wonder why I am the way I am. It's a weird feeling when you have two conflicting desires in your heart (isolation and contact). Overall I'm happy with my life and everything but yeah, this song perfectly sums up how I feel when I'm unhappy and how I act most of the time which is why I think it's a great match for this week.
Lyrics:
I got up late again today And I'm scared of everything I don't dare to dream I guard a dark imagination These hours waste away A debt I'll never pay
I'm talking to the walls But the walls keep caving in They amplify my thoughts I really want a conversation But I let it slip away A debt I'll never pay
Worry, worry, oh It's funny how it changes When nothing really changes at all
Am I jaded? Am I meant to feel this way? I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake Oh, at least it was my mistake 'Cause I choose to be this way I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake
I saw my friend today She tried to comfort me But I turned her away There's magic in this misery So no matter what you say I don't think I'll ever change
Worry, worry, oh It's funny how it changes When nothing really changes at all
Am I jaded? Am I meant to feel this way? I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake Well at least it was my mistake 'Cause I choose to be this way I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake
And I don't really care about what anyone says I don't give a damn about what anyone says I don't want to think about anything I don't want to think about anything And I don't really care about what anyone says I don't need opinions hanging over my head I don't really care about anything I don't really care I don't really care at all
Am I jaded? Am I meant to feel this way? I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake Well, at least it was my mistake 'Cause I choose to be this way I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake Well, at least it was my mistake Well, at least it was my mistake
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Post by Aglan on Apr 29, 2019 15:17:39 GMT 1
Generic White GirlNF - Paralyzed Timeslot: 3:24 Fun fact: This was my second choice for the first week in season 2 but I didn't want to come across as a massive emo and didn't send it in the end. Anyway, anybody who knows me irl knows how much I love NF's songs. When I saw the theme of this challenge, I knew this was my choice. During my elementary years, I always said and did things that I was thinking will make me more popular and more "Perfect" person in the eyes of others. I lied about my hobbies, favorites things and I even made up fake stories to make myself more interesting. (BTW It didn't work at all) In eight grade I did many things that I don't want to talk about because I regret them a lot, I did them because I was thinking that's who I am but in reality it was what the others wanted and I just wanted to be """Good""" person in their eyes. After ninth grade. I was a ball of lies in front of my "friends" who all turned their backs to me and the worst part about that is that I didn't even knew who I was. Around this time I found NF and and this song. When I heard the first time, it felt like I was listening to a song about my life past nine years and I started to have my own opinion on things. And in high school I made friends by being myself and I truly grateful to come across NF cause he made me relize something I was avoiding for my whole life. Lyrics: When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself? All the words that leave my tongue Feel like they came from someone else I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed When did I become so cold? When did I become ashamed? (oh) Where's the person that I know? They must have left They must have left With all my faith I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed I'm paralyzed I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago But it's still alive And it's taking over me where am I? I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside But I feel nothing, I wonder why And on the race of life time passes by Look I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em I just watch 'em I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it I'm at the bottom and I don’t know what the problem is I'm in a box But I’m the one who locked me in Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed) Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed) I no longer feel things (I have no feelings) I know I should (oh how come I’m not moving why aren’t I moving ay yeah) I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?) I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed) I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
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Post by Eke on Apr 29, 2019 15:50:12 GMT 1
"FAKE HAPPY" Paramore
3:08+
I'm choosing this song because it's a song that definitely describes my life for around the last half-decade. Throughout this time I've had many struggles, but despite everything, I've always held those emotions locked deep inside me and have always pretended everything was well, even to the closest people in my life.
Hey, if I smile with my teeth Bet you believe me If I smile with my teeth I think I believe me
Even to myself.
You see, it's easy when I'm stompin' on a beat But no one sees me when I crawl back underneath
I definitely sulk in my feelings a lot when no one else is around. It's "easy" when I'm doing things that keep my mind off it, but the feelings really come out when I'm alone, and that's when the "fake happy" disappears.
Oh please, don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend
Only today did someone ask me how I've been, and my first instinct was to say "I've been well, things have been quiet" which is what I always say. The person that asked me is thankfully a close friend and I am able to confide in her, but even still, instinctively I would always just pretend to be fine.
Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too
I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. And most people are good at hiding their true emotions, it's very hard to tell what someone is truly feeling inside. It's definitely sad, and I often wish I just had the courage to open up more, because despite having people I feel most comfortable or close to that I can confide in, I will never truly open up fully to them or even really be able to do it, because I always just struggle to find the words.
There's only been a few periods in my life when I've felt truly happy, primarily in my childhood, the rest of my life I've been "fake happy". I also chose this song because of how uplifting it sounds, despite the lyrics. Depression and sadness don't always have to go hand in hand with melancholy; plus the song itself is a representation of the feeling of "fake happy", with the lyrics representing how you really feel, whilst the music represents the facade you put on.
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I love making you believe What you get is what you see But I'm so fake happy I feel so fake happy And I bet everybody here Is just as insincere We're all so fake happy And I know fake happy
So I been doin' a good job Of makin' 'em think I'm quite alright Better hope I don't blink You see, it's easy when I'm stompin' on a beat But no one sees me when I crawl back underneath
Hey, if I smile with my teeth Bet you believe me If I smile with my teeth I think I believe me
Oh please, don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh what's the use? Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too
If I go out tonight Dress up my fears You think I look alright with these mascara tears? See, I'm gonna draw up my lipstick wider than my mouth And if the lights are low, they'll never see me frown
Hey, if I smile with my teeth Bet you believe me If I smile with my teeth I think I believe me
Oh please, don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh oh, what's the use? Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too
I know I said that I was doing good and that I'm happy now Ooh ooh I shoulda known that when things were going good That's when I'd get knocked down Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da Ba-da-da-da-da-da
Oh please, just don't ask me how I've been Don't make me play pretend Oh no, oh no Oh, what's the use? Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too Oh please, I bet everybody here is fake happy too
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Post by James on Apr 29, 2019 16:14:53 GMT 1
Terra Yaki!!
Sorry about the quality of the post itself but I can only use my phone so woops
(2:40-)
This song has many layers of meaning for my life. The song talks about traveling on a road to a town, the significance of this town isn’t clear. For my life, I have lived in four different towns and each town added a layer to who I am. Although ive moved to many places, I’ll never forget my roots, my family and my hometown. I am always traveling on a road and each stop makes me more complete. There is also a line saying “kaeritai, kaerenai” which means “ i want to return, I cannot return”. There are times where I want to go back to the past and change things I did, said and choices I made. I feel upset when thinking of what could have been. For example, I wish I found love while in high school and didn’t let my anxiety and depression hinder me as much as it did. The last line “sayonara” says goodbye to these towns and memories. I won’t forget them but I’ll accept that I can’t change them. These struggles from the past made me grow as I continue my life path. The song is also in Japanese, which is symbolic to me because I moved to Japan. The song is a Japanese cover of the American song “country roads”. It symbolizes my “furosato, hometown” but also shows my new home in japan. I will adapt here but I’ll never forget my roots and my homeland. This song gives me happy feelings and is very personal to me.
Lyrics: English Translation * Country road Kono michi Zutto Yukeba Ano machi ni Tsuzuiteru Ki ga suru Country road
Country road If you follow this road onward It continues to that town, I think Country road
Hitori botchi Osorezuni Ikiyou to Yume miteta Samishisa Oshi komete Tsuyoi jibun o Mamotte iko
By myself, without feat I dreamed of going Shutting up my loneliness Protecting my strong self, I'll go
* repeat
* repeat
Aruki tsukare Tatazumu to Ukande kuru Furusato no machi Oka o maku Saka no michi Sonna boku o Shikatte iru
Getting tired of walking then standing still Floating closer, my hometown The uphill road winding around the hill I'm scolding that me
* repeat
* repeat
Donna kujike souna toki datte Keshite namida wa misenaide Kokoro nashi ka houchou ga hayaku natte iku Omoide Kesu tame
No matter what discouraging times there are I'll never show any tears Without heart, I'll hurry and set myself free In order to get rid of my memories
Country road Kono michi Furusato e Tsuzuitemo Boku wa Yukanai sa Yukanai Country road
Country road Even though this road continues to my hometown I just can't go, I can't go Country road
Country road Ashita wa Itsumo no Boku sa Kaeritai Kaerenai Sayonara Country road
Country road Tomorrow, the me I always am I want to go back, but I can't, farewell Country road
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Post by Wysteria on Apr 29, 2019 16:49:58 GMT 1
** "STOCK IMAGE " Miya Folick
1:56+
This song actually depicts (at least in my head when I read the lyrics) about a person with both social and confidence trouble. About someone who constantly tries too hard to not be himself at times, so he decides to hides himself from the world or from his outline.
This song generally represents the inner-dialog of yourself and your confidence to be happy, to feel smth when in reality you struggle to recognize if you have a personality at all. As someone who barely walks out of his comfort zone, who tries too much to communicate only so he can escape after 5min and tries to forget all bad and embarrassing things and keeps trying to be something he is not so he could feel more comfortable.
I originally wanted to send Talking with Strangers but as that song is quite Unoriginal at this point, I optioned for another Miya song that depicts the similar problem of self-doubt and hiding from your true intentions and wishes just so you feel safe and "happy".
Lines I think really depicts me:
"Feeling Empty outside your outline":
- Me not being able to feel safe outside my home and with people around me most of the times having the feeling you don't have nothing interesting to say
"I see it, I'm killing doubts": - this line intrigued me as I have doubts and it doesn't fit with my vision of the song but as the song represents the inner-conversation, this actually means the opposite, your mind trying to kill or hide your doubts so you feel safe. "Won't get out until the water's cold and I am blue":
- Being afraid to step outside your comfort zone until you really have to
"Look in the mirror till I forget Everything I know, everything I did Was just a way to make the time feel faster:"
- Me trying to forget all embarrassing stuff in my life, but only just so I make time fly faster and people to forget it too and make me live on despite of unsolved business or it eating me inside while I do that.
"Shave my head in your bathroom Sweep my hair under your bed":
- the term "your" could mean that I am doing something personal inside someone else's house or in this case brain. Also hair is part of the personal style. I see this as an attempt to be someone else so you feel better about yourself which is sometimes I occasionally do.
"Colour in, colour in Feeling empty outside of your outline You scratch at the door of the divine Within, colour in You can't stand the greatness of sunshine You hide in the bones of a stock image Of a stock image You hide in the bones of a stock image":
- Chorus depicts on me constantly telling myself to be happy, cheerful, someone else despite me not being that and I only scratch on that door, not enter it. It is only a stock image of myself. Stock Image in this songs represents the fake perfect personality that I show myself as but in reality I am being eaten inside by my doubts and my problems that I keep avoiding. | LYRICS
Bathe myself in the afternoon Won't get out until the water's cold and I am blue I see it, I'm killing doubts So I just open up the door and I ring it out
Don't you get too far from yourself You're so hard on yourself Oh, you'll get through Only hard when you say it's too hard
Colour in, colour in Feeling empty outside of your outline You scratch at the door of the divine Within, colour in You can't stand the greatness of sunshine You hide in the bones of a stock image
Shave my head in your bathroom Sweep my hair under your bed Look in the mirror till I forget Everything I know, everything I did Was just a way to make the time feel faster
Oh, you'll get through Only hard when you say it's too hard
Colour in, colour in Feeling empty outside of your outline You scratch at the door of the divine Within, colour in You can't stand the greatness of sunshine You hide in the bones of a stock image Of a stock image You hide in the bones of a stock image
Bathe myself in the afternoon Won't get out until the water's cold and I am blue I see it, I'm killing doubts So I just open up the door
Colour in, colour in Feeling empty outside of your outline You scratch at the door of the divine Within, colour in You can't stand the greatness of sunshine You hide in the bones of a stock image Of a stock image You hide in the bones of a stock image
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Post by Luiri on Apr 29, 2019 17:24:46 GMT 1
"VENDEZ-NOUS DU RÊVE" en: SELL US SOME DREAM
by LIV
1:49+
I may not be the only one relating to this song, in fact, I believe that most people that are the same age than me, or the singer (22, aka, born in 1996), may get connected to the lyrics.
This song talks about that period when you just turned 18 to 21/22, being a transition between our parents, our past, and our future, our little siblings or our childrens. Being on this period of transition between our teenager life, and our adult life.
For me, this period was just a huge struggle to live, between my family problems, and my situation (forced to stop school, moving to a department when you're my age, there is nothing, etc...), and I also asked me tons of time "but how I can be an adult ?" I still don't know how to be an adult, and I know I am not the only one on this case.
The title of the song, Vendez-Nous du Rêve, in English, Sell us some dream, means that someone is knowingly liying; or to promise things that will never come true, just to get the good graces of the interlocutor. | LYRICS (FRENCH, ENGLISH LYRICS IN SPOILER)
Tombé du haut de la lune L’espoir au corps Génération d’infortune Tirée au sort Déchus les anges sans plumes Dormir dehors Génération sans rancune Nous on fait le mort
Vendez-nous du rêve Avant que tout s’achève Nous sommes la relève Vendez- nous du rêve Je vous parle d’un temps Que les moins de vingt ans Voudraient tellement connaître
Sans mépris et sans haine Nous prendrons la relève Vers de nouveaux horizons Vendez-nous du rêve Du rêve
Sous vos décombres qui fument On cherche encore Des fleurs naissant du bitume Pourraient éclore Nous n’avons pas d’amertume Quand on s’endort Génération vingt-et-une On attend l’aurore
Falling from the top of the moon Hope to the body Generation of misfortune Randomly drawn Falling angels without feathers Sleeping outside Generation without hard feelings We are making the deads
Sell us some dream Before everything ends We are the next generation Sell us some dream I'm talking about a time That the under twenties Would like to know so much
Without contempt and without hatred We will take over Towards new horizons Sell us some dream Of some dream
Under your rubble who smoke We are still looking Flowers arising from bitumen Could hatch We do not have bitterness When we fall asleep Generation twenty-one We wait for the dawn |
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Post by ~Rethnas~ on Apr 29, 2019 23:05:36 GMT 1
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"Beautiful Pain" Tessa Dixson I chose this song because it really speaks to me on a personal level about the beautiful pain that is love for me. I'll try to explain the struggles like always needing acceptance and not feeling good enough that I go through with love with the lyrics Lyrics Taking your time Taking your time Making your mind up What you remind What you remind What you remind me of this part really speaks to me because i'm always doubting myself once I'm in a relationship and it always seems to affect him in a way that I drive him even further and further away from me because I'm not only doubting myself but also doubting my feelings and if it's really love or not If you in my bed Feeling so ready to make it out Don't wanna hold Don't wanna hold Don't wanna hold on Making it hard Making it, making it hard to know, oh You, I do it again You and I, beautiful pain again this part speaks to me because i always want to talk about how I feel and I always want to make it out and talk about our feelings, but in the end I always forgot it's always only me that needs to talk about my feelings and I forgot his. Wich lately maked me realise I always need acceptance in a relationship, and in conclusion me acting that way drove him even more further
Hold me so closely Take charge like you own me My heart locked in chains It bends and it breaks How long can I stay here Mind hazy, so unclear this is for me the most important part of the song as for me it really is about how I do need acceptance all the time, and by needing acceptance al the time i become a person who would literally do everything for him just so he would like me and at the same time doubting everything that I do. And that comes across as very unstable and it keeps me from getting a stable and healty relationship, because I'm in the way of my own happiness in some kind of way. Maybe I should raise a glass, or two Reminisce about the good times with you instead of overthinking about all these things I should enjoy it more at the moment and not after the relationship ended, because I remember blaiming him for all the problems I had within relationships but it in the end it's me who can't enjoy the moment by always needing the confirmation he really likes me for who I am
I gotta go, I gotta go now You wanna know You wanna know why I can't see this out, no You I won't do this again You and I beautiful pain this part of the lyrics speaks to me in the perspective of the other person in the relationship, I need to understand that I need to stop being so insecure even when I have a person with me that loves me
Hold me so closely Take charge like you own me My heart locked in chains It bends and it breaks How long can I stay here Mind hazy, so unclear Maybe I should raise a glass, or two Reminisce about the good times with you
Taking your time Taking your time Making your mind up What you remind What you remind What you remind me of I gotta go, I gotta go now You wanna know You wanna know why I can't see this out Beautiful pain, I
Hold me so closely Take charge like you own me My heart locked in chains It bends and it breaks How long can I stay here Mind hazy, so unclear Maybe I should raise a glass, or two Reminisce about the good times with you
In the end this song also speaks to me on so many levels because lately it helped me realising I need time for myself to work things out before I'm ready to go back to the beautiful pain that love is and making this post really is helping me too to write down my feelings more and I'm thinking about doing it more often now as it really seems to help me a lot
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