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Post by Jeffry on Jul 29, 2013 2:09:22 GMT 1
@ Dennis: Indeed, I thank you, but it's more my fault than any of the other members here.
My attack is my defense, and now you know why.
Wow, I'm literally sitting here crying over this bullshit I created.
I lost so much respect and friends today, to which I already have so few, and this makes me feel so fucking depressed. A part of me just died. Really it did.
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Post by Jan on Jul 29, 2013 2:09:23 GMT 1
Indeed Jan, it happened before. And I can get why nearly everyone holds a grudge against me. If I could control it, I would. The problem is I can't, and it hurts me even more than it does to you, really. I never intend to tell this story, but I will: I've been punched, kicked, strangled, thrown all over the place, nearly day in and out, since I was 5. That hurts physically, but it gets mental, and you create a defensive wall. Hit it and the cannons go off. That's what has happened before. The most hurtful was the time I nearly got physically violated. I don't suspect any special treatment, I just want to tell you guys. Similar things happened to me. But I'm happy with my life right now! How did I do this? Talking. I talked with my parents, teachers, classmates, the principal. In the end we've talked with the "trolls" (however you want to call it). In the end everything was fine, you know. It took me 3 years, but I've managed that! If I can give you an advice, talk with somebody you trust. Don't run away from your problems! |
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Post by Jan on Jul 29, 2013 2:13:38 GMT 1
I know, it's the same thing.
You insulted many people - It can't be undone, and they feel bad. - A 'sorry' doesn't let the situation disappear.
You got punched, kicked etc. - It can't be undone, you feel bad. - A 'sorry' doesn't let the feelings in your soul disappear.
But the first step to 'a better physically life' is talking to someone, as I said.
Is there anybody you really trust deep inside?
And was there a reason that you've been punched, kicked etc.?
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Post by Deleted on Jul 29, 2013 2:13:52 GMT 1
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Post by Jeffry on Jul 29, 2013 2:16:20 GMT 1
Jan, that is the problem. My condition is so bad my motto has become: Trust nobody! They will shoot you, once you turn around.
People I really trust: Daniel, Shaun, Talitha, Alexander, Selvin and some others on the forums.
In real life: No one, because they've all screwed me over.
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Post by Rick on Jul 29, 2013 2:16:21 GMT 1
Now that we all calmed down.. Ok.. Someone could understand that reaction.. But why a diffamatory thread like that.. Just why? -.-
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Post by Jeffry on Jul 29, 2013 2:17:42 GMT 1
Sorry Rick, but I don't know the word diffamatory.
Sorry...
But it's escalated, and now it's something that has to get off my chest. Sorry for doing it this way then.
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Post by Jan on Jul 29, 2013 2:19:05 GMT 1
Jan, that is the problem. My condition is so bad my motto has become: Trust nobody! They will shoot you, once you turn around. People I really trust: Daniel, Shaun, Talitha, Alexander, Selvin and some others on the forums. In real life: No one, because they've all screwed me over. Well, I'm not a psychologist. Have you ever been to a professional psychologist? It's another advice I could give to you, because you really can trust those people! I had been visiting a school psychologist for a while and it really helped me. |
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Post by Logan on Jul 29, 2013 2:20:33 GMT 1
Jan, that is the problem. My condition is so bad my motto has become: Trust nobody! They will shoot you, once you turn around. People I really trust: Daniel, Shaun, Talitha, Alexander, Selvin and some others on the forums. In real life: No one, because they've all screwed me over. Well, I'm not a psychologist. Have you ever been to a professional psychologist? It's another advice I could give to you, because you really can trust those people! I had been visiting a school psychologist for a while and it really helped me. Yeah patient confidentiality |
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Post by Jeffry on Jul 29, 2013 2:21:30 GMT 1
Jan, I did, and even they called me 'mentally unstable'. I was hallucinating people were beating me up etcetera.
I didn't hallucinate, it happened for real.
That's even a harder blow. But already telling this, relieves greatly, I can tell. Even though you might not like it, you're helping me become me, but a better version. Thanks. I appreciate it.
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