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Post by garythesnailcat on Apr 17, 2013 8:09:48 GMT 1
As some (all two) of you have noticed, I deleted my forums account. I also deleted all files on my computer that have to do with my personal interest as well as my YouTube account (GVSongContest - I didn't know how to delete the others).
As much as I really hate to say this... I did this because I was planning to commit suicide.
I've had suicidal thought for about 2 or 3 months now and they've began to get bigger and bigger until I came to a breaking point 5 days ago. I've had skits like this before. In October last year, I left the forums for two weeks and I deleted all my GSC files. In these skits I forget about how important life is and how much my death would effect people, thankfully this time, this realization came just in time. If it hadn't, I'd probably be dead now.
I'm afraid that I can't type anymore because I'm very tired and I probably look like an attention whore for doing this in the first place so I'll probably be back again later.
I'm not asking for your prayers, care or sympathy, I just needed to get this out there.
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Post by How Bogs How Blue on Apr 17, 2013 8:18:34 GMT 1
 I didn't think it was something serious I'm very very sorry. You must realize this everyday, your life is very important for your family. If we, forumers, would learn you're death we would cry or be very sad. Get well and come back, we love your company, please don't leave !! |
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Post by Liev on Apr 17, 2013 8:23:26 GMT 1
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Post by Jιm on Apr 17, 2013 11:56:12 GMT 1
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Post by Deleted on Apr 17, 2013 12:19:44 GMT 1
www.dailystrength.org/It's a website i've been using since my friend commited suicide in 2006 - you can basically have a personal diary or a public one and vent as much anger out as you can and they have support groups on there for all types of things from ADHD right down to widow(ers) Taking care of your own personal life is of course something really important and it's understandable how much 'boiling point' you get when you reach the thoughts of suicide, it's scary and it's confusing but at any time you need to, vent it ALL your anger on a piece of paper or a blog otherwise you'll do what I did and start biting yourself or punching walls. Especially now with me being a teacher - I've just had the feeling that we get when we see someone of your age write such words because we're here to ensure that you grown into adulthood, but of course teenage years are confusing and some questions are hard to answer, especially when it's of such a high calibre like this. Of course there's www.samaritans.org/ who you can talk to for support. Perhaps seeing a psychiatrist can help - I saw one and it helped. I hope i'm not coming across as a pushy person, just, knowing how it feels to lose someone to suicide everytime I can stop this awful b*tch from winning - I try.
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Post by jeffry390 on Apr 17, 2013 12:27:21 GMT 1
Oh Gary, we didn't know that. Well, you're not the only one who had these thoughts, so did I, but all the support I got back at the time also made me realise how much there is to live for.  Best of strength to you, and here on the forums, we will all support you. I am always around, so if you need someone to talk to, I have experienced it myself. Best wishes, and come back soon. We are becoming a family here embracing more and more members. Live to seize another day, has become my motto. |
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Post by eurofan2006 on Apr 17, 2013 12:32:13 GMT 1
Oh my god Gary,please think it again! Life is a wonderful thing,I mean,just look what is happening to me every day with the racism towards me,but I don't give up! Tables are turning  |
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Post by Dimitris on Apr 17, 2013 19:16:44 GMT 1
I'm just shocked. I never thought this would be the reason of leaving You should talk to us, you know we would support you and make you change mind. Now are you finally leaving or?  |
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Post by kalle on Apr 17, 2013 19:23:31 GMT 1
There's nothing to say that hasn't been said alreday. Just take care of yourself, and remember that you, like everyone else, have a place in this world. Life will have more to offer in the future.
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Post by Jess on Apr 17, 2013 19:35:49 GMT 1
This will sound cheesy, but things will get better. Everyone else has pretty much said everything, but one thing I can strongly recommend is: Perhaps seeing a psychiatrist can help - I saw one and it helped. I did the same thing as Robbie did and it really did help. Sometimes telling a stranger about your problems is 100x easier than telling someone you know. |
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